All those boys out their scratchin’ their noggins thinking "how on earth do I get this girl to see me!?" …Just send me some of these. I sent Samie some already, I expect her to be running into my room naked at any moment ready and willing to give her self to me.

I also want to have a baby soon so I can play these lullabys to it. Parents have such control over how the kid ends up for the rest of their life eh? …Im so worried my kids will just be horribly screwed up because of me. That would be sad.

Anyway, I really don’t have anything to post. I spent the last 2 days writing an essay that was due last semester but ended up being really really good. If the prof doesn’t take any late marks off then I think I’ll have an A in that class which will be nice.  Tomorrow will be spent studying cultural geography - old and new school differences and eastern religions along with Indian culture.

Midterms start up next week, and just incase I end up staying at UVIC I think I’d better get a couple As. I realized that if I just stick it out this semester, and through the summer - and then next year… I could easily graduate and have a Ba under my belt. Weird. I didn’t realize I was that close to being finished, if I opt out on the honors… which won’t matter if I just want to go into radio anyway.

Well I started this post at 11 pm and it is now 4 am - I keep getting distracted. Oh btw - my Oscar watching is going well. I watched Children of Men yesterday. It was really really good - I just wasn’t sure if it had actually ended. I really hope they don’t make a part 2. …that would just be really bad. The only Part 2 that was ever as good as the first one was Jurassic Park… and only because Vince is in it.

Too many people are being blinded by the idea that hydrogen is actually a really good alternative source of energy. It’s like saying that Kyoto is a really good attempt at reducing climate change - sure it’s a step in the right direction and I don’t want to undermind that fact, but just because it’s one small step doesn’t mean we should be acting as though its really leaps and bounds towards sustainable energy - the fact of the matter is hydrogen fuels aren’t the answer.

Pure hydrogen doesn’t occur naturally, so it has to harvested and its done so using electrial or chemical processes… which are obviously going to have hidden environmental consequences. The obvious solution would be to use renewable resourses as power for those processes reducing the environmental footprint of hydrogen production to virtually zero… But it would cost 10 times as much as using conventional fuels.

The cheapest and mostly commoly used method of hydrogen harvesting is called "steam methan reformation". The process involves taking the hydrogen atom our of natural gas molecules… and simple science is going to show you that that will leave behind carbon that will escape, and what’s causing global warming? There are rumors that scientists know how to "catch" this carbon - but it adds a lot of cost if it actually can be done.

"Yes katie - but water has no carbon silly girl" If the electrolysis extraction of hydrogen from the water can be done with solar power, or wind power or something then it will be emissions-free, but if instead (and more likely/commonly) it is done with a more traditional powerplant - then there will still be emissions. Less than cars, but still it requires a commitment to optimize the process of electrolysis and finding cleaner ways of producing it.

So electrolysis is less dirty than steam methan reformation but it also costs a whole hell of a lot more. It costs about $1.20 to produce on kilogram of hydrogen using steam methan and about 1.65 for electrolysis. I think the cost of electricity was 2.7 cents per kWh in that case but what does electricity actually run at per kWh? I dont even know. In 2003 it was something like 8 cents. And I know that solar hasn’t come down much from 20 cents. …So Its going to cost a lot to get hydrogen actually being produced cleanly.

So really we’re just looking at a battery that has to be charged - sure its not going to spit out as much emissions as a regular car, but it has to be created. A completely renewable-powered hydrogen based economy would require thousands upon thousands of mills and solar panels covering every acre of land possible. Extracting the hydrogen will create more expensive pollution than we already have thus negating the original purpose of extraction.

The only "benefit" this is going to have is that the polluted areas will be shifted, instead of a ton of smog there is going to be consentrated pollution where the extraction/splitting of hydrogen is happening. This helps to reduce the effects of urban smog - but it does nothing to blanace out the over all toxic emissions that we have currently spewing into the earth’s atmosphere.

Not to mention - more over all energy is needed to isolate the  hydrogen from the compound that it is originally formed in than can ever actually be recovered from its use. Anyone who knows anything about simple laws of physics (wow, that was stuck up. Sorry.) is going to know that hydrogen is going to come with a gigantic loss of energy.

I probably shouldn’t get into this and stop while I’m a head but most of the hydrogen that will be used is going to be found in water, right? What the hell do you think is going to become THE most politically disputed natural resource on earth after oil? Honestly… it will be water. There are already fights about water. The US already hates Canada because we have water and they don’t because they were stupid enough to build cities in deserts.

It will only get worse. All the science that is being done is being led by political agendas to make it seem like Bushy poo is actually doing something for the environment - but if these scientists were to screw their heads on properly they might see that these research grants aren’t worth it when it comes down to the fact that hydrogen can’t possible been an effective and sustainable solution to the energery crisis.

But lets say, for arguments sake, that we actually find a way to economically and sustainably extract biomass or natural gas into hydrogen and THEN we find a completely safe way to transport it that isn’t going to make it all blow up… where are we going to store it when it isn’t being used? It is going to have to be bled off from the containers so it doesn’t blow up - so its just going to sit there leaking.

Anyway - my point is, Bush can pour money into researching fuel cells, and people can say there are thousands upon thousands of years of energy just sitting in water - but its not a solution.

I know I said I was taking a break for the day but the funniest thing ever just happened to me.

Scene - Bus #39 to UVic. Katie had headphones on and is interupted by a woman who can barely speak english

Woman: Do you have time?
Katie: yeah, it’s 3:15
Woman: No, time
Katie: Sure… its…3..
Woman: Okay, here  hands katie a survey…
Katie: Uh, alright despite your trickery.
Survey: "Do you believe in God" "When was the earth created" "What does 666 Represent" …etc. Katie finishes and hands her heathen filled survey back to the lady.
Woman: You are atheist. Okay here let me show you.  starts scribbling on a peice of paper that the earth was created wtih the universe exactly 3 500 years ago.
Katie: Have you ever heard of the agricultural revolution?
Woman: No?
Katie: Okay… What about the megalodon?
Woman: Jesus is your path to salvation not megalodon.
Katie: …Right. Have you heard of Pangea, the super continent?
Woman: Salvation is the super continent!
Katie: wow… alright, do you want to go on a date?
Woman: What?
Katie: like, me and you… Dinner, a movie…  then maybe some kissing?
Woman: shocked look, grabs her kids hand No, no no. Hands katie a pamphlet and runs off of the bus.

Heh. It really happened exactly like that. I feel bad for the kid.

I’m breaking for the rest of the day. I want to finish my essay, go get groceries, go to the gym, watch Children of Men and the L word, study for my religion midterm, copy out some geography notes… So I’m packed for the rest of the day. I will share the most hilarious opening line ever from a guy with you guys though:

I can bench-press your mom. Don’t believe me? Just ask her
about last night.

Ahhh haha. F’n great. Also my bushism for the day is

I think we ought to raise the age at which juveniles can have a gun. - oct 2000.

I love George Bush. really. I do. He’s always thinking like the childern… err thinking OF… is what I meant. Anyway, im off to the grocery store and gym. I’m not going out tomorrow (there is a party, but I’m not going… because everyone will be drinking and that will just be annoying.) so I can post then I ’spose eh? Today is day number 12 of project de-crap. Eek. Its going well. I guess.

All men this about is sex, right? When ever they touch their belt, or adjust… Or when ever they tilt their head… Every 7 seconds a new sexual thought is racing in their mind… Right?

And if you’re a woman you’re got to be ready at every moment to fend off these sexual deviants that are ready to pounce on you… every 7 seconds.

At least, this is what I’ve been told since I popped out of my mommy’s belly. All boys want from me is sex… And all I want from them is an emotional connection. Men don’t want commitment and would love to have 4 wives, where as we’re all monogamous and are craving commitment.

…We all know this is bunk. Girls think about sex ever 7 seconds too. Some women would love to have 4 husbands or 4 wives… And some guys would love to have just one wife, or just one husband. I personaly could never do polygamy beacuse I think it’s really really really stupid. (But that’s for another post, another day…)

I’ve noticed that a lot of feminists don’t really deal with the stereotype of women being emotionally needy and generally speaking… sexually passive. Instead they just come pounding out as being overly sexualized.

But what’s worse… is that these stereotypes really make men out to be lying, womanizing, cheating, sex-prowling, unattentive and emotionless jerks… This is the part that really gets no attention (masculinities are far too often over looked.) and honestly, I’d like to think there’s more than that to most men. Or at least some of them.

The hetero-masculine stereotype of what it means to be a guy needs to be examined a little bit with the idea of sex craving and emotionally void characteristics in mind. I’ve preached before about needing to open up the definition of masculinitiy to include emotions and to allow for guys to view a partner as something really special and not just a the equivalent of a blow up doll.

Instead of forcing the idea down boys throats that they are part of the hypersexualized gender they should be told that no matter how low or high their sex drive is - its fine just the way it is if they’re respectful to whom ever they’re attracted to.

I got a phone call from someone after my show on Wednesday and he was telling me that he just couldn’t handle it any more. …He has overly feminine features and acts really feminine by nature - but he isn’t gay at all, but people assume he is.

So instead of just ignoring it all he went through a big phase where he just tried to sleep with as many woman as possible. Regretting every second of it to this very day he asked me to please talk on air about men, and how hegemonic masculinities ruin lives.

It got me thinking about the real differences between men and women. If we were to stop focusing on the differences, and just allowed people to be who they wanted to be, there would be SO fewer cases of harassment, SO fewer cases of people in highschool struggling with being themselves in fear of ridicule… and its a sad fact that we place so much thought on being "normal" and being "stereotypical" that we actually end up ruining people’s lives due to the expectations of normativity.

I really hope that my kid can grow up in a world where he or she can be as masculine or as feminine or whatever, when ever they want. I hope s/he can be gay, straight, bisexual, transexual, whatever - without the fear of the world. Its a big hope, and an unlikely future.

Hurff. Bed time.