A couple people have said things to me in the past month that have led me to believe that … I’m like two different people.

1. Joe, Justin, me and Zak (maybe the intern was there too, I don’t remember) and I are sitting around CFI talking about Myer’s Briggs. The last time I took the test just over a year ago I was “ISTJ” …now I’m “INTJ“, which I didn’t really expect… ISTJs are highly organized and super focused on planning. If you know me, you know that disgustingly true. INTJs main “thing” is being super analytical. Which… I guess I am most of the time. Joe was very shocked that I’m an I, and not an E (introverted, not extroverted). That’s scenerio one.

2. John was talking about coming here to Guelph and he said something like “you’re you no matter where you are” in response to me saying that Guelph isn’t really… where I’m me, because it’s not my home… really.

So… these two situations combined into one thought really made me realize that people in Guelph likely see me as a 100% different person than my friends in Toronto see me. In Toronto I’m with people all the time. I go specifically to socialize. The part my Toronto friend’s don’t see? When I get home to Guelph and totally crash into being a hermit for 4 days straight, until I head back to Toronto.

For example… this weekend I was literally, never alone…unless I was peeing. Then I was usually alone. I went to see Wall-E with John, went home to Allen.. Friday went to CFI and hung out with people there, hung out with Mark and Shannon later…when home to Allen again…All day Saturday I was with John, Roy, Yunyun…Joe and Zak at some points…Justin at the ROM… just ALWAYS with people.

Now I’m back in Guelph. I’m at work … and there is literally *nothing* to do. So everyone else on the shift is sitting in one pod (pod = one big cubical with like 4 desks in it) playing cards, talking, laughing, sharing foods, playing games… etc. While I am sitting in a pod …totally alone… surfing the net and listening to my music really loud so I can’t even hear them talk. Tomorrow when there is actual work to do… I’ll sit in a pod alone, even though the rest of the centre will be full…and I’ll just work tickets all night, trying not to talk to people. And forget trying to talk to me during the day. I don’t put pants on or leave my basement. (Not like I’m dressed any better now… Sweat pants and a tank top and flip flops. Yep. That’s my work wear. Because I’m a bum and I don’t care. I’m surprised they haven’t fired me.)

So… people in Guelph think I’m an apathetic and interverted bitch where as my Toronto lovelies see me as much more social and interested in other people and things going on. I’m hoping that the move to Toronto will resault in a balance… (Also the intern will be more readily available at my fingertips which is good for me - and good for my friends/family who keep getting ditched so I can go see him in Toronto… :S eek, haha. It’s his fault!)

On an entirely different point - I’m really sick. I eat, and then 10 minutes later it comes right back up. Weird, right? I know. I hate being sick.

I doubt anyone overly superstitious reads my blog besides my mom … so have a good and lucky Friday to everyone else! Go put a $10 bill in front of a superstitious person’s house… watch for a reaction… OR use that $10 to buy yourself and a friend a pitcher of beer and have a good night.

It’s also my birthday - if anyone is in the Toronto area and likes to go out drinking with skeptics and atheists feel more than free to give me a telly call (519 400 6650) and meet up with us for the night. Today is also the day that I’m getting the new piercing! I will post pictures once I’ve got the new metal in my face! YAY!

Mad props to my friend Christine who painted a portrait of me for my b-day gift. It’s for sure the coolest thing anyone has ever given me. Have a great day guys! (Sorry, I’m not posting all that much because our internet at the house has for some reason started to SERIOUSLY suck… like, i have to click on things 5 or 6 times before they actually decide to load. However - we’re signing up with a new provider in t-minus 2 days, so no worries. love love love!)

It’s Summer time! And besides Sex and the City - I’m most excited for the new Batman movie.

I’ve got a pretty kickin’ summer lined up. Sorta. Kinda… Mostly. Anyway.

I’m working midnights at the look-up center. Basically I work Sunday - Wednesday from 9 pm - 7 am… 10 hours, 4 days a week… looking at maps. Not too shabby. Every weekend off, which I’m pretty excited for. So weekends will be spent either in Toronto or with my new “crew” from work. Me and three other girls hit it off pretty well, so we’re all keeping in mind that we have Saturdays off, and no one works Sunday mornings. We’ve had training together all week, so it’s going to be a HUGE bummer when we all start working different shifts next week.

I think the best thing about this is have Thursday - Sunday off (well, sunday until 9) so I have a TON of time to start devoting to writing (which I promise I’ll do!) and a lot more time to devote into secular group things… And I’ll actually be able to make it out to events! Which is fun. I couldn’t do that at my last job.

They such a dynamic group of people, which is awesome.

Besides working there are a few other “big” things - Sex and the City comes out in like 15 days… and I’m really really really excited for it. Also the CFI student leadership conference is in July, and that promises to be a lot of fun. Mostly because I’ll get to hang out with Roy!! Woo! (and all the other secular kids… but Alon and Roy are especially exciting.) Hemant is coming at the end of June which will be a weekend of secular awesomeness. Lollapalooza - although still up in the air as a maybe - will be FANTASTIC … if I can find someone to go with me. *angry face*

Also I’ll have a couple radio slots to work on, and the launch of the new student secular site is really exciting… and my birthday is in the summer… aaaaaand… yeah. I just have a lot of things to look forward to in the next little while. It’s nice.

More time for CFI events = more trips to Toronto = more shopping at H&M = I <3 life.

So, there seems to be a lot of things changing at this point in my life-o-la.

I quit the retail store as assistant manager and will be starting a job more inclusive to my studies a week from Monday, which is pretty cool. I had a job interview in Buffalo with CFI last week. It went really well, to the point where I got the job and the only thing keeping me away from there at this point is the US government’s inability to hand me over a visa. BALLS. But that’s okay, making maps is cool too, I guess. For now anyway.

Going to Buffalo was a gong show, well coming home anyway. I was in the bus station and some crazy woman came into the washroom while I was washing my hands and she stole my blackberry and ran off. … Confused and in shock I started crying and ran to the police, but I was in America so they didn’t do anything for me. (I yelled at them though. I very rarely yell, but boy did I yell.) So I finally accepted that it was gone and besides my bus was leaving in 10 minutes so I couldn’t really do anything anyway. I got back in line to get on the bus and turned around to 4 canadians behind me

Katie: hey are any of you on the roger’s network?
Canada boy: yeah I am, why?
Katie: I need to phone rogers and cancel my phone, it’ll be a free call on your cell, if that’s cool with you
Canadian girl 1: why do you need to cancel your phone?
Katie: My blackberry was just stolen
Canadian girl 2: Shut up! We just found one!
Canadian boy: Yeah! Out in the garbage!
Canadian girl 1: We gave it to information!

*katie runs to information*  …The cover wasn’t on it anymore, and the battery had been stolen… But there it was. Fully intact… I popped the extra battery in and voila, good as new. So lucky that I turned around to THOSE Canadians.

I registered for school in the fall again - so I’ll have my degree soon. I don’t know what I’ll do with it, but I’ll have it. The school called me last week and made me declare a minor more or less on the spot. Apparently going into fourth year you’re supposed to have that sort of thing solidified. So I declared philosophy - formal logic. Which isn’t so bad…it just means I have an entire semester of math coming my way. Luckily it’s fun math.

I’m still doing radio stuff, but it seems like CFRU doesn’t want religious content. They’re all worried that I’m going to say something inappropriate or step on toes. …The point of my show is to avoid doing that and talk to everyone of all faiths, so I don’t know how that could happen. But you never know, everything offends someone somewhere. So… it might get canned. Hopefully it doesn’t, as I have an interview with the Friendly Atheist lined up for Monday.

I’ve also eaten a TON of oreos in the past 2 days. I think I actually have a sugar headache *right now*

Apparently I’m sending mixed messages to people. First I say I’m not a fan of Richard Dawkins and then go on raving about how I’m an out loud atheist.

I’m not about to go and say that all people who believe in God are stupid like Brian Sapient, Richard Dawkins or PZ would. I don’t appreciate or respect the way that Dawkins speaks about religious people. I live with two fantastic people who are religious. I work with an incredibly kind and intelligent girl who is christian.

I am no more intelligent now than I was when I was christian. For all intents and purposes - I haven’t really changed. I still abide by the rules I was taught while I was a christian, because they’re pretty moral and make a lot of sense - they are things that people really wouldn’t argue with in general. My community has changed from Sheridan United Chruch or Campus For Christ to the Center For Inquiry, University of Guelph Skeptics and the Freethought Association of Canada.

I guess I lucked out in that I was born into a very liberal christian family - rather than a conservative one, which I feel is where I would struggle more with adapting to the idea of respecting everyone and their choices.

I just don’t believe in God. In any sort of definition. My step-dad often pulls out the “reason is your god” line on me (that which you hold highest), but I don’t think it’s right for someone else to define for me what God is in such a …vague and weird way. …What if I’m a biologist and hold mitochondria in the highest regard in my life? Does Paul then get to deem mitochondria my god? Something just isn’t right about that.

Anyway - I’m an atheist. I don’t hate christians. I don’t like people who don’t respect christians who are perfectly open minded - like my parents and some of my friends. I will forever be thankful to my mother for bringing me into a family where I was raised with the option of being religious - but given the resources and knowledge to question.

In other news - I am sooo tired. Something about being at work from like 6 am - 5 pm just doesn’t sit right with me. I am also the new vice president for the Freethought Association Of Canada - which is now a charitable group. Woo. I’ll be more excited after I get some food into me.

Also - I don’t think I’m sexual active enough to date boys… they’re always so ready to go, when most of the time I’d rather watch American History X or talk about philosophy… or math. … or math and logic fused together - mmm. mathematical logic > sex.